With Georgie & Mohamed
The Yr 9, including Hayat (at the left corner)
With (L-R) Yanni, Katt, Roberto & Lisa
The two lovebirds: Lisa & Roberto
with my friend, Katt.Yep. I've been to a crazy disco party yesterday night. It was nuts. Get to dance with friends randomly and get mobbed and alienated wasn't really fun.
I got bored for the first time in a disco 'coz I felt alienated by dozens of other people including classmates.
But then my other friend came and it was an emotional roller coaster that day. Every song the dj played are quite crappy. Some songs were like the old times with my other friends from my other school. It was like an informal candle-light ceremony or turnover. Turnover is for 5th graders and 6th graders got together and sing-along with dance.
I remembered when I was in 5th grade, I was flirting with my "crush" at that time. And while we were eating as I was walking, I fell over because I stepped on some spilled Coke, and all of my friends were laughing their heads off! It was hilarious! :)
And now at this stage, being like a wallflower is like being a loser. Alienation was the thing. Everything alienated me. Even the "snowball game", nobody wanted to be my guy partner, more like, "go away 'coz you're not h-o-t", so I kept it inside me and never want to show that disco really ripped me off. :'( It made me want to hug my ex even tighter although he is just a part of me and i will never see him anymore but I do love him very much.
I'm making the best not to show everyone I'm crying, I don't want to show that eveything affected me like smoking dope, I just want to be left alone, crying because it wasn't so fair to me that people are vulnerable and vain to me. :) They don't want me to be there anyway.
But what hold me back to my tears, are my friends who were there with me, including my friends' boyfriend. :) At least they were there to be with me and to be with them. I guess, I found real friends over here. If they weren't there I would have been sent home by the teachers, if I didn't lied. :) I am good at lying to them sometimes, if I can look at their eyes because eyes tell everything.
I got bored for the first time in a disco 'coz I felt alienated by dozens of other people including classmates.
But then my other friend came and it was an emotional roller coaster that day. Every song the dj played are quite crappy. Some songs were like the old times with my other friends from my other school. It was like an informal candle-light ceremony or turnover. Turnover is for 5th graders and 6th graders got together and sing-along with dance.
I remembered when I was in 5th grade, I was flirting with my "crush" at that time. And while we were eating as I was walking, I fell over because I stepped on some spilled Coke, and all of my friends were laughing their heads off! It was hilarious! :)
And now at this stage, being like a wallflower is like being a loser. Alienation was the thing. Everything alienated me. Even the "snowball game", nobody wanted to be my guy partner, more like, "go away 'coz you're not h-o-t", so I kept it inside me and never want to show that disco really ripped me off. :'( It made me want to hug my ex even tighter although he is just a part of me and i will never see him anymore but I do love him very much.
I'm making the best not to show everyone I'm crying, I don't want to show that eveything affected me like smoking dope, I just want to be left alone, crying because it wasn't so fair to me that people are vulnerable and vain to me. :) They don't want me to be there anyway.
But what hold me back to my tears, are my friends who were there with me, including my friends' boyfriend. :) At least they were there to be with me and to be with them. I guess, I found real friends over here. If they weren't there I would have been sent home by the teachers, if I didn't lied. :) I am good at lying to them sometimes, if I can look at their eyes because eyes tell everything.
By the way, I forgot to tell you:
Maggie-nese means language of your true self, a reflection of you. Actually you can make your own language by adding your name to these suffixes:
- -nese
- -ish
- -ese
- -ank
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